At Times.........
At times, breaking down does not show your weakness. It’s the strength of acceptance Every time you break, the tears dry up a bit. Your knees harden.
Your world comes to a stand still. Everything around is colourless. The sun is no longer warm; neither does the cold wind pinch. You’re numb.
“How can i be so fragile? How could i be so vulnerable?
How could I love someone so much?
Lines unsaid, only written, bearing a testimonial to the fact that in those moments of sanity, my thoughts always run to you, my sanctuary, my safe haven, I turned to you. In these moments of weakness, and sweet despair, struggling to grasp the proverbial straw… trying to save myself from drowning in the vortex of my head,
…I… I have all of it…
It’s just so perfect right…just like old times, but there is something missing
…… YOU….
I am lost without you. You know…
I tried to move on.”
How could someone be so important in your life that when they leave you are filled with feelings of insecurity, panic, worry, anger, and feelings of depression…
“I skinned my heart, I shed a tear, gave a wry smile, and tasted the bitterness..
i took my trust away from others and relied on myself.
I experienced an identity crisis, not knowing who I was any more without you..
I needed you, I begged, pleaded the heavens..
Why this pain?
For no fault of mine.
Why, why did you do this to me??
You hurt me..
And I …I only loved you.”
You promise yourself never again are you going to let anyone break you so easily.
You try to resolve become a bit more firm, but does it really help??
I don’t need you. No I don’t…
I feel so empty right now that the feeling eats me…
But what am I to do..
Whenever I read those unending, reiterating lines the memories seep through my veins, the joy, the pain, the laughter, the tears, the anguish, the anticipation, the devotion, the consecration, the passion….. a plethora of those emotions, too many thoughts, unwritten, unspoken, the silence, the untread miles, forgotten scraps of those pages unturned, those messages unsent, remnants of the ashes of time, burnt away in a wisp of smoke those moments that just passed us by….
I can’t write anymore…
What did you do to me? ...are you happy??”
You learn a lot don’t you?
What do you do next??
Do you have an option?
“"You know I’m done with all of this…done with this pain…
I wish I could burn all your letters throw everything…
But what about all those memories…can I destroy them too???
Well I’ll live with them…
Whatever it may be I cannot deny the fact that …. That once you were a very important part of my life. You were the one I loved…
But you know what I learned from you???
That love is beautiful…
I want to…I want to love again…”
You start living with a positive outlook towards life..
And who knows….
one fine day your no longer weak.
“"Because I know one fine day I’ll find someone…
Who will love me.
Maybe more than what I could ever,
In fact maybe even more than what you could….
But I know i won’t shed another tear ever again…
Because you have given me so much pain, that one day I know
Ill become unbreakable….”
At times, breaking down does not show your weakness. It’s the strength of acceptance Every time you break, the tears dry up a bit. Your knees harden.
Your world comes to a stand still. Everything around is colourless. The sun is no longer warm; neither does the cold wind pinch. You’re numb.
“How can i be so fragile? How could i be so vulnerable?
How could I love someone so much?
Lines unsaid, only written, bearing a testimonial to the fact that in those moments of sanity, my thoughts always run to you, my sanctuary, my safe haven, I turned to you. In these moments of weakness, and sweet despair, struggling to grasp the proverbial straw… trying to save myself from drowning in the vortex of my head,
…I… I have all of it…
It’s just so perfect right…just like old times, but there is something missing
…… YOU….
I am lost without you. You know…
I tried to move on.”
How could someone be so important in your life that when they leave you are filled with feelings of insecurity, panic, worry, anger, and feelings of depression…
“I skinned my heart, I shed a tear, gave a wry smile, and tasted the bitterness..
i took my trust away from others and relied on myself.
I experienced an identity crisis, not knowing who I was any more without you..
I needed you, I begged, pleaded the heavens..
Why this pain?
For no fault of mine.
Why, why did you do this to me??
You hurt me..
And I …I only loved you.”
You promise yourself never again are you going to let anyone break you so easily.
You try to resolve become a bit more firm, but does it really help??
I don’t need you. No I don’t…
I feel so empty right now that the feeling eats me…
But what am I to do..
Whenever I read those unending, reiterating lines the memories seep through my veins, the joy, the pain, the laughter, the tears, the anguish, the anticipation, the devotion, the consecration, the passion….. a plethora of those emotions, too many thoughts, unwritten, unspoken, the silence, the untread miles, forgotten scraps of those pages unturned, those messages unsent, remnants of the ashes of time, burnt away in a wisp of smoke those moments that just passed us by….
I can’t write anymore…
What did you do to me? ...are you happy??”
You learn a lot don’t you?
What do you do next??
Do you have an option?
“"You know I’m done with all of this…done with this pain…
I wish I could burn all your letters throw everything…
But what about all those memories…can I destroy them too???
Well I’ll live with them…
Whatever it may be I cannot deny the fact that …. That once you were a very important part of my life. You were the one I loved…
But you know what I learned from you???
That love is beautiful…
I want to…I want to love again…”
You start living with a positive outlook towards life..
And who knows….
one fine day your no longer weak.
“"Because I know one fine day I’ll find someone…
Who will love me.
Maybe more than what I could ever,
In fact maybe even more than what you could….
But I know i won’t shed another tear ever again…
Because you have given me so much pain, that one day I know
Ill become unbreakable….”
